This little light of Mine, I’m gonna let it shine…Let It Shine, Let It Shine, Let It Shine.(Harry Dixon Loes)
We are the light of the World, May your light shine before all. That they may see the good that we do and give glory to God. (Jean Anthony Grelf)
Two songs ringing in my head. Why not Christmas Carols or Traditional Religious Songs of this particular week? It’s my life. I live by this. And I am becoming a better me through my experience with MKMMA.
I am grateful for the past 13 weeks of reading, learning, reflecting, sharing, silence, sits, listening, seeing, smelling, touching, tasting. It is overwhelmingly awesome. I am aware of my old blue print, and it is when I am doing MKMMA I am exposing my new blue print.
How can I describe my past few days dealing with family and friends. One task was to share MKMMA. That was accomplished not with words but with action. I controlled myself of opinions, and I controlled myself of turning negative situations with substition and making it positive. It was quite helpful that my husband did not provoke me. He has been quite supportive and we have not had conflict of anything for a long time. Is it me? Is it him? I know the atmosphere of our home has been positive and uplifting. Is it the small changes of MKMMA over the past 13 weeks. I am not an A student in this program. My memory does not recite all the sentences and phrases we are learning. I have to read, read, read. I am still wiring the brain for the memory…I have to have my cards…but it works. It works for me.
Jogging my memory of all the things I have done has been a great “organizing” task for me. As I realize I have forgotten alot of things that I have done.(or have I put them aside to avoid the pain) I have learned living in the present just to survive should not be the only focus in life. With my cards, I have been able to participate in table conversations. This I am grateful.
I am sad, I am not willing to be public, but it will come, I just can’t write on the whim. I wish I could. But… I am going to shine. I help others. I serve others. I love others. I interact with others.