So… my blogging.
This week we started the new Scroll IV by OG. Today I will be master of my emotions.
March 1, is a memorable day every year because it is my birthday. March 1st was my DMP goal date. Did I accomplish it? I would say YES. One of my goals was to clean out my home of clutter. I had 20 years of “I will get to it when the kids are in school”… those piles of things that got too overwhelming that it was more painful to go through them. So I had to take a box one box at a time. I dedicated 2 days a week starting in September. It just happened to parallel MKMMA course.
A spin off of our Alliance area of “Tools for Expanding”. This course is about letting go than collecting things. Emotions of “Fear, Guilt, Anger, Unworthiness, and Hurt Feelings to expand my comfort zone”…has really really shook me into taking the plunge of the Hero’s Journey. Week 17, I shared with you the Hero’s Journey with enthusiasm…then FEAR settled in, I went into my turtle shell. I am not proud of my blog of Week 18, Week 19..they were forced and quite difficult. It is Week 22. I am so excited to share an epiphany of my journey. I am ready to move from the world of known to the unknown. …please forgive me for not easily letting go during week 18-21… I was able to identify and release my fear and anger of sarcasm and teasing… I realized I have no humor in my life…I don’t easily laugh and majority of humor have to explained to me. Explained atleast 3 times (which frustrates my husband). So my defense mood is to put up a wall or “fake it” but it hurts my feelings of not understanding and knowing people laughing me.
This week I learned to turn those emotions into tools… so I recognized the anger, and I used it as a tool to address my husband who upsets me most. So this week Monday, I told him that he hurt my feelings when he says things to me in sarcasm/teasing. He told me he does not say anything malicious to hurt me. Then, I blurted out about 7 times that he did and he was shocked and gave a disgusted look. We argued that I do not hear what he says. After giving examples and he looked at me with a more tender heart, realizing the struggle I have. Now it is Thursday night, we have been talking everyday with more clarity.
We had a MKMMA Tribe call on Wednesday, where I steps out and shared my fear of sarcasm directed to me/ teasing…and my lack of humor, and requested help in laughing. I shared this video with my son, then with my husband. I didn’t laugh the first time, I had to have my son explain it to me. He laughed. I questioned what I don’t get it. Then my husband watched it and laughed, then laughed knowing I didn’t get it and he had to explain to me. However, it perfectly makes sense to me that my husband has blocks in his head, and I have wires. Those neuropeptides. What I liked best was, that evening…he used the blocks and wires to explain to me how I think and it was funny and made sense and I had some humor.
Did you Laugh? I hope you did. I am adding more humor to what I hear.
Also I realize that I fear I am missing something from the webinars, thank goodness for the replay. Admitting is it has released the stress of not learning what I need to learn, so I just use my fear as my tool…and get involved. Again, thank you for reading my post. It’s amateur, but for me it is growth.
Live your Passion
LIFE is an acronym for Live It Fully Everyday. We need to do more than going through the motions. I have realized I had been just going through the motions. But through my journey a passion has been resurrected. I didn’t realize how far down I had buried my own goals and dreams. You can read my older blogs to follow my struggles that I have grown through over these past 21 weeks.
Recapturing my passion is to start living my life and to make my own choices. I am in control of my destiny. I create what happens. I am.
This is what I have realized for my thoughts to share:
When life hits hard – stop, adapt, and move on. Recognize the old blue print, recognize the negative, recognize the bad influences… and stand tall and address it with positive. By putting a mirror in front of them and not participating in the stream of negativity, you help transform their sour outlook into a sweet in-look. When they realize what they’re missing, they’ll decide it’s time to stop being a victim.
As I have grown through my Hero’s Journey, I have been able to share my experience with others. The 5 months of Og Mandino’s one sentences, have automaticly come out of my mouth as I have opportunities to share with them. “Today, I begin a new life. I greet this day with love in my heart. I persist until I succeed. I am nature’s greatest miracle. I live this day as my last.” And I lead the conversation with, “What are you pretending not to know? Or What is the new you going to do today?” I so love how these words have made such a difference in my life.
February 21, 2015
12:30pm…. I can’t wait. I just figured out how to share a video. I am a visual learner. Things click for me when I see it. So, I am so excited to share this video with you my reader. Thank you for reading my blog. When I started 20 weeks ago, I did not write to an audience. I wrote because it was an assignment, but the encouragement to share my experience of my MKMMA weekly experience has documented my journey. I am grateful to be able to go back and read my blogs and for my own growth…. overcome my fears…. one fear at a time.
I stop blogging for various reasons…they will be revealed as I gain confidence and the GOLDEN JULIA THERESE THERESA BAYSA STANDISH…come to you, polished and radiating light for you to see.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Please forgive me for not posting my blog. When I posted my Hero’s Journey on week 17, I fell into a low…Knowing that a new habit is my goal, I continued with my basics…I can not explain WHY
Thursday Night passed and I still didn’t hit the publish. But today, Saturday, I am determined to NOT multitask and focus on one. FOCUS.
So, watch this WIMP video I saw on Friday. I flame of heat and light entered my mind. Will you get the same feeling?
Sorry, I don’t know how to add it so that you don’t have to click on the link. 11:18am.. been working on this for 40min. Learned how to use the shorten link and customize it for my own purpose. But to get it to be seen on this free WordPress, must make the difference.
11:41am. Here is my FEAR. Posting and not getting it the way I want it.
I promise I will update. If you are reading this… thank you. The video is worth watching.
Blog: I decided to write out my blog, and then go back and figure out the video to be inserted.
Soo… after watching this video very late Friday Night, I decided this what I will write about. It was back on Week 12, when we sat and looked at ourselves in a mirror for 1 hour. I went back to read my blog. I am grateful, I did write. WRITING is so important. Truly is. I know now that my absence for the past 3 posts hurt me more. But I also realize that being connected with the WHOLE Alliance is vital for my growth. The Whole alliance gives energy when energy from within is VERY weak.
So back to the 4 minutes SIT. Starring into one’s eyes. The emotions that stirs. ONLY my fellow MKMMA member will understand this next comment…. I sat for 4 MINUTES and starred into my Future Self… I went back and redid Week 12 and sat and looked at myself. It was a mindset that I really needed to do inorder to break free. I looked deep into her eyes and found a wonderful person….whole, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and HAPPY….yes, happy …. It brings me to the video that was shared in class…. “fake it until you make it”…I’m embarrassed.
I look to my “big brothers and sisters”, I read their blogs with dry thirst, absorbing everything I can, I am exhausted… But, its a progression…My Pace. I will not fall behind. The end is near… am I prepared to be on my own??
12:10pm Thank you, Paul Turner of Ontario, CA…Masterminding at its Finest!!!! If you want to put a video into your blog, you need to have the correct link. So for YouTube, you need the share link. Here it is for you.