Monthly Archives: February 2015

Week 20A – Sharing your Fears

February 21, 2015

12:30pm…. I can’t wait. I just figured out how to share a video. I am a visual learner. Things click for me when I see it. So, I am so excited to share this video with you my reader. Thank you for reading my blog. When I started 20 weeks ago, I did not write to an audience. I wrote because it was an assignment, but the encouragement to share my experience of my MKMMA weekly experience has documented my journey. I am grateful to be able to go back and read my blogs and for my own growth…. overcome my fears…. one fear at a time.

I stop blogging for various reasons…they will be revealed as I gain confidence and the GOLDEN JULIA THERESE THERESA BAYSA STANDISH…come to you, polished and radiating light for you to see.

Week 20 – Focusing on One Task

Saturday, February 21, 2015
Please forgive me for not posting my blog. When I posted my Hero’s Journey on week 17, I fell into a low…Knowing that a new habit is my goal, I continued with my basics…I can not explain WHY

Thursday Night passed and I still didn’t hit the publish. But today, Saturday, I am determined to NOT multitask and focus on one. FOCUS.

So, watch this WIMP video I saw on Friday. I flame of heat and light entered my mind. Will you get the same feeling?

http://bit.ly/TrueComfort

Sorry, I don’t know how to add it so that you don’t have to click on the link. 11:18am.. been working on this for 40min. Learned how to use the shorten link and customize it for my own purpose. But to get it to be seen on this free WordPress, must make the difference.

11:41am. Here is my FEAR. Posting and not getting it the way I want it.
I promise I will update. If you are reading this… thank you. The video is worth watching.

Blog: I decided to write out my blog, and then go back and figure out the video to be inserted.

Soo… after watching this video very late Friday Night, I decided this what I will write about. It was back on Week 12, when we sat and looked at ourselves in a mirror for 1 hour. I went back to read my blog. I am grateful, I did write. WRITING is so important. Truly is. I know now that my absence for the past 3 posts hurt me more. But I also realize that being connected with the WHOLE Alliance is vital for my growth. The Whole alliance gives energy when energy from within is VERY weak.

So back to the 4 minutes SIT.  Starring into one’s eyes. The emotions that stirs. ONLY my fellow MKMMA member will understand this next comment…. I sat for 4 MINUTES and starred into my Future Self… I went back and redid Week 12 and sat and looked at myself. It was a mindset that I really needed to do inorder to break free.  I looked deep into her eyes and found a wonderful person….whole, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and HAPPY….yes, happy …. It brings me to the video that was shared in class…. “fake it until you make it”…I’m embarrassed.

I look to my “big brothers and sisters”, I read their blogs with dry thirst, absorbing everything I can, I am exhausted… But, its a progression…My Pace. I will not fall behind. The end is near… am I prepared to be on my own??

12:10pm Thank you, Paul Turner of Ontario, CA…Masterminding at its Finest!!!! If you want to put a video into your blog, you need to have the correct link. So for YouTube, you need the share link. Here it is for you.

Week 19 – Independence and letting go

Saturday, February 21, 2015
Please forgive me for not posting my blog. When I posted my Hero’s Journey on week 17, I fell into a low…Knowing that a new habit is my goal, I continued with my basics…I can not explain WHY,  but if you jump to Week 20, then you may understand my thoughts during week 18-19. I did write 19 in a word document…. here it is:

Week 18 – Death and New Life… the struggle admitted

Saturday, February 21, 2015
Please forgive me for not posting my blog. When I posted my Hero’s Journey on week 17, I fell into a low…Knowing that a new habit is my goal, I continued with my basics…I can not explain WHY,  but if you jump to Week 20, then you may understand my thoughts during week 18-19. I did write 18-19 in a word document…. here it is:

Difficult week for me. Sad week…7 days…hard news of death, returning of cancer only to be lifted up in the birth of my 2nd granddaughter.

We had to read obituaries, and I had to lift my girlfriend in support and help her write on for her father. The reflection of how his “dash” was spent had me really evaluating my own life and how I would like to live my life. I am very grateful for the Scroll V for this month. It just is a very heavy scroll and yet an inspirational scroll. My daughter gave birth to a beautiful little girl. My second granddaughter. The new life that begins, makes me want to get take action in my development in this MKMMA self-discovery course.

Never ever give Up. Am I observing myself and being decisive or indecisive? I need to continue my Hero’s Journey and move into the unknown. I am afraid.

Do I hit publish?